April 30, 2008

The universalist

In her bestseller "Refuse to Choose - A revolutionary program for doing everything you love" Barbara Sher writes about people she calls Scanners. Those are people whose problem in life is not that they have no fun or do not know how to spend their time. There is just too much they would love to do and they cannot decide which is the option that keeps them happy forever so they can finally settle down.
I stumbled upon the book in a bookstore and while going through it I found the chapter that was about the "universalist". This particular version of the "picaflor" (as a Spanish friend likes to call Scanners) is the one where you keep changing jobs, positions and lifestyles, collecting qualifications without ever noticing, and never settling down or feeling entirely fulfilled. This is partly what my life is about and I feel the same impatience, the same eagerness to learn new things and continually change my current lifestyle. I felt flattered and calmed down at reading that for this kind of person it is mostly easy in life. For someone with many talents, languages, a gift with people and motivation to learn, there always is work and the journey is the way until one perfect job finally shows all the characteristics of continous and diversion a universalist has been seeking all the time!
So yeah, I will leave a mark in this world, the only thing I need is a little more patience and loving people around me who tell me every once in a while that it's gonna be fine :)

April 28, 2008

I love the world

Making Choices

...is essential! And it is by far one of the hardest things to learn, when you are as open and accepting towards the world as I try to be. Openness brings with it a whole bunch of choices. You constantly get this influx of new and attractive possibilities, get to know new people, find and cherish new dreams. Decisions have to be made, about which dream to pursue, which opportunity to grasp, and in my life, these are not black and white. They are more like green and orange, complementary and equally beautiful, depending on the mood I am in and on the prospects I draw.

Making choices comes with liberty, which is basically a very desireable thing. It can be very sad not to have the possibility to decide and feel the force of circumstances or just good reason compelling you to do a particular (sometimes unwanted) thing. Often it is ourselves that define how free we are and our perception influences our choices. But is it not risky to decide as if you were totally free of obligations and only obliged to yourself? Are you not wagering on an insecure basis if you gamble everything for your dreams? That is what makes me afraid of catching some planes and giving up some connection: insecurity and fear!

Fear is a very important factor when it comes to choose because a decision always is against one option and in favor of another. You lose something and have to take the decision all the way hoping to win something, too. What am I going to win? Will I be able to keep it, or is it just a short-term gain? What will be lost forever?

Writing about it makes it clear how complex it is to reach a good decision. Time always tells though! I need to practice my patience...

A new blog

In an attempt to wear less and less masks in life I have decided to drop one that I felt time ago was important! I do not want to fear the discovery of myself by the world and have no business thinking about the possible abuses of the personal thoughts I write down. So I will provide you with the link to this blog. It has been mine for a long time and I will follow here in its tradition. This blog will use English as primary language, but from time to time I might just switch to German or Spanish. Regard it as a way of expanding your mind just as I regard it as an exercise for my capacity to think in different languages (German being my mother language).
Off we go! I hope you enjoy :-)