Relationships

I would like to talk about relationships. I don't know if I am qualified by experience to talk about relationships, but then everything is relative and my experience probably is not so different from that which many of you share.

I do not believe in the one true love, but I absolutely do believe in true love. How is that, you ask, and I answer: I have experienced it myself and especially know that I have felt it (may I say feel it?). This is the strongest guarantee one can have, don't you think?

Every time I fell in love it was like a moment of becoming conscious, a moment of starting to be aware that there is something big to come and most of the time it really scared me. When awareness gradually develops and at the same time it becomes clearer and clearer that one's feelings are reciprocated, slowly life becomes more and more enveloped in this exciting new way of thinking. One goes out of one's way to stay true to this newly found love, to see how it grows and where it will all lead, in spite of the fear.

When days and months go by, this flower blooms and fear subsides. It makes way for pure joy and a feeling that the world is good and that there are no mistakes, only wrong turns that lead to something special and finally get you in a direction that is not worse than any of the directions you took before.

But nothing lasts forever. People and lives change, you never know when will be the next turn of the tide and fear may gradually spring again. It is the other side of the medal when little by little you notice that a relationship is ending... or changing. I have ended relationships in the past and it has never been easy. Most of the time I never even felt it was right, I just knew it rationally and over time everything came to me.

But humans are creative and people learn, so who can say what you find in your heart the next time you look? Maybe you become aware of something big...